Images from that night still scare me. Not gonna lie. After shrooms I’ve never really been able to sleep the same. Note to self and everyone: don’t do two 8ths on your first trip. And do them with at least one sober person and not in your own house. I was jus trying to go to sleep right now when images of what I remember, which are bits and pieces but still scary to think about nonetheless, just came up. Looking at the small lights that come from objects in my room such as the light switch, computer monitor light, moonlight creeping through the crevices of the blinds, I remember exactly how they looked 7 months ago on that night. And I remember trying to go to sleep just to stop all the craziness that was going through my head, just wishing itd stop, wishing and hoping it would just end. I just remember being scared shitless that it would never end. And i thank my great friend who is practically my second brother for staying awake all night and morning making fun of me and making sure my dumb ass was alright assuring me i was going to be okay through text too haha. Fuck i don’t know what would have happened if i was truly alone that night. But still no more shrooms for me, at least not that many again, and definitely not alone. But it’ll be a long while before that happens. I’ll just stick to the Mary Jane for now. That always works and you can smoke ounces of that. -_- goodnight. I hope.
Don't lie to your friends or family, your only lying to yourself.
Your only setting yourself up for failure even worse than where you’re at right now. Your parents think positively of you and it sucks that it’s continually happened for so long, im always hearing nothing but procrastination from you saying what your “going to do” stop talking about it and jus fucking do it already. Go Nike on that shit. Stop fooling people, who are you trying to impress? Everyone knows the truth.
Stop texting me. I only exist when you a) need a ride. B) are bored and no one is falling for your antics. C) you want alcohol. Or D) want someone to do all the above. Fuck that shit. And im tired of your shenanigans, go fool someone else cause im not fallin for that anymore.